Hello Me

I'm finding it difficult to part ways with the ever social butterfly life. I want it, and I miss it, but at the same time, I don't seem to be pursuing it anymore. I know I'm young. I know I have so much more life- in the way of late nights, dancing, loud socializing and the likes- inside of me. But I need to work on my inner self. I need to work on the silence. Inside I am restless, and not because I want to go out and go crazy, but because I want to find a sort of comfort and serenity that is yet to really be discovered. I need to rediscover peace within myself. I need to find assuredness, calmness, and acceptance within myself. I need to learn to be comfortable with myself again. I've grown distant from myself, and my true desire is to hang out with me - and to enjoy it.

I know walking away from some and distancing myself from others (even if it's not forever) may come back to haunt me, and when I return from this...I'll call it self-reflective journey, there may not be as many there for me to come back to. Still, I need to do this. I've spent too much time being worried about other's schedules, other's timing, and everyone else's pace of life to the point of neglecting my own pace and schedule. I've been living by everyone else's watch, and I need to learn to be okay with doing things for myself, without as much regard to other's schedules as I've given in the past.

That's all.

falling loveliness

I love that my rain boots can be considered "normal" footwear. I've missed the rain. I welcome the rain. The green I love cannot be without the storms, so I embrace it, I smile when the drops hit my cheeks, and I can't help but jump in the puddles.

The only downside to my rainboots...they've got holes. Christmas present?